Josie Gross-e

I am feeling SO gross. Ugh...
I'm already acne prone but this pregnancy is making me MORESO. Not only do I have non-stop pimples along my jawline but now I'm getting them on my chest. It's August and I feel like I can only hide them if I wore a turtle neck, and that is NOT an option. (Can you even still buy turtlenecks?)
My face is SO oily.

My hair feels disgusting and every time I wash it, I lose more of it.  No matter what shampoo, conditioner, product I use... my hair still FEELS gross and won't do ANYTHING that I want.

I look "weird" in all my clothes. Some clothes make me look 9 months pregnant, others just make me look plain ole fat. None of my old shorts/pants fit. And a lot of my shirts that technically do still fit aren't long enough to cover the "panel" of maternity shorts/pants.

But beside all the gross feelings, we had a Dr's appointment this morning that went really well. I did two sets of genetic testing (bloodwork, ultrasounds, fetal measurements) to test for Down Syndrome and other "problems".  My Dr told me before I elected to have these tests done that a lot of women's results may come back as odds of 1 in 200 chance, and the mothers always think they'll be that ONE and will do more invasive testing (amniocentesis) to investigate further, which brings a higher risk of miscarriage. Well, my odds for those tests came back 1 in 40,000! He said "You don't get any closer to zero percent chance than that!" So that was great to hear. :) My urine tests have all been good. Blood tests all good, all tests came back negative. Yaay! So now we go back in three weeks for a full anatomy scan, and to confirm the sexes. I told him when we had out 14 week 6 day ultrasound, the tech told us two boys. He said "well, don't rule out a girl entirely yet. At that point baby genital can look very similar". He said "they may very well both be boys, but just as a heads up" So, there's still a chance I suppose, that one of my munchkins could be a girl! So, we better not finish painting the nursery quite yet.

AND!!! I can use OTC topical products for my acne, and I can get my hair highlighted so hopefully that will help with my icky feeling.

Pregnant Fatty

My plan was never to get pregnant at my pre-pregnancy weight. For years I told myself I was going to lose weight before getting pregnant not just for the obvious health reasons for me and a baby, but because I wanted to be a "cute pregnant lady" not a "fatter fat lady."  I can see friends that don't see me on a regular basis look me up and down to look for a "bump" but my whole body is a bump. I'd love to take "belly bump" photos like everyone else does but I'm not comfortable with it. I don't think there's enough to show. There's a few outfits, shirts or dresses I wear that Greg looks at me and says "You look pregnant" (to skinny girls this would sound offensive, like they're being called FAT) to me it makes me smile. I don't think I look "pregnant" but my body shape has definitely changed. There is a "bump" but not noticeable to others. My body does LOOK and FEEL different but no stranger would know that. So until I get huge I'll continue to wear my "Pregnant and Fabulous," "Double Trouble" and "I'm not Fat, I'm Pregnant ...and Fat" t-shirts, just so we're all clear. :)