"Today is the first day of the rest of your life"
Have you heard that quote before?
Well, it holds true to me today.
I have been trying to live a healthier life for years. I've lost weight in the past, but haven't kept it off. I've exercised in the past, but not kept up on it. I tried being a vegetarian. I've tried eating low carb- high protein diets. I've done diet pills, I've done Weight Watchers (multiple times), I've done TOPS (Taking off Pounds Sensibly), I've tried the herbal suggestions of Dr. Oz, I've tried many, many things. But nothing sticks. The only thing that is going to work is ME.
So, I've lost my job. I've got nothing but time on my hands at this point so I've decided today is the day that everything is going to change.
Yesterday I was "installed" as Co-Leader at our TOPS Chapter. What better time to really kick it in gear to be a motivation to others. Hopefully helping myself as trying to help and motivate others.
I've decided to put more time, work, and quality into the things we eat. We're going to eat less pre-packaged foods, more organic and more fresh, one ingredient foods. Not only that but we're not eating ANY red meat this week, and with that, hoping to limit it from here on out (I say "limit" because we will both need a big ole juicy BEEF burger once in a while)
Yesterday I signed up for College classes to start working towards a CAREER, not just shitty jobs that I get stuck in just to pay the bills.
I am not one that deals well with change. I stress and agonize and have anxiety like a lunatic, but this is my chance. This is the time for me to better myself for my future family and just be HAPPY. So, to be realistic, I'm also FREAKING OUT over all these changes, but I'm just trying to stay strong and take one day at a time. I'm sure as the start of school edges near, I will be a ball of nerves but in the end it will all be for the best.
I will surround myself only with the people who support me, love me, and those friends and family that I know I can truly trust.
So I ask all of you for your support, prayers and encouragement as I, as WE, transition into this new stage in our lives.
XOXOXOXOXO
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Now what?
I'm so overwhelmed. I've got a million things running through my head that I have to sort out and I don't even know where to start.
Let's start with "The department is not moving in the right direction, and I'm letting you go."
Never been "let go" from a job in my life.
Never had such a weight lifted from my shoulders that quickly, in my life.
I have never met such an egotistical, fake, ugly, socially-awkward, greedy asshole in my life. And I cannot tell you how happy I am to never have to see that face again.
But what does make me sad are all the people. There are SO many amazing people that I worked with. SO many faces I will miss seeing every day. So many friendships that have formed there. It's truly amazing how much closer a environment like that can bring people. You all suffer through each day together.
I know some are sad to see me go. I know that others are jealous that they weren't the next one to go. And I know there's some that could care less. But to those who are sad, don't be. This is my chance, this is when I finally get to go out and make something of myself. This is my time to grow, go find myself, to be the best that I can be and no one can drag me down now. My slate is clean, this is a new beginning. In a way I it's like I've just graduated High School again. I won't see the majority of the people ever again and if I do, it will be that awkward eye contact where you question if you say hi, or pretend you didn't see each other. Others you won't get together with not as often as you'd like, but think of them often. You've got this wide future ahead of you and it's all up to you what's next. It's a great feeling AND an incredibly scary feeling.
So to all of my friends, I love you. I'll miss you. And let's try to get together often.
And to, you "others" screw you, backstabbers!
Let's start with "The department is not moving in the right direction, and I'm letting you go."
Never been "let go" from a job in my life.
Never had such a weight lifted from my shoulders that quickly, in my life.
I have never met such an egotistical, fake, ugly, socially-awkward, greedy asshole in my life. And I cannot tell you how happy I am to never have to see that face again.
But what does make me sad are all the people. There are SO many amazing people that I worked with. SO many faces I will miss seeing every day. So many friendships that have formed there. It's truly amazing how much closer a environment like that can bring people. You all suffer through each day together.
I know some are sad to see me go. I know that others are jealous that they weren't the next one to go. And I know there's some that could care less. But to those who are sad, don't be. This is my chance, this is when I finally get to go out and make something of myself. This is my time to grow, go find myself, to be the best that I can be and no one can drag me down now. My slate is clean, this is a new beginning. In a way I it's like I've just graduated High School again. I won't see the majority of the people ever again and if I do, it will be that awkward eye contact where you question if you say hi, or pretend you didn't see each other. Others you won't get together with not as often as you'd like, but think of them often. You've got this wide future ahead of you and it's all up to you what's next. It's a great feeling AND an incredibly scary feeling.
So to all of my friends, I love you. I'll miss you. And let's try to get together often.
And to, you "others" screw you, backstabbers!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Taking Care of Myself
There have been many people in my life who have let me down. Mostly family but I've begun to see it in friends too. Maybe it's wrong for me to remove those people from my life, maybe it's wrong to stop trying, but what I do know for sure is... I'm happier without them in my life. There are some people I miss, and some people I'd like to make relationships (be it friends or family) work, but there's only so much I can do, and if it's not reciprocated on the other side, there's nothing I can do about that. I've learned through life experiences, and a lot of pain that I have to let go of some people in order for me to move on in my life and be happy. I'm thankful for my wonderful husband who's made all my dreams come true, I'm thankful for an AMAZING father who has ALWAYS been there for me. I'm thankful for my best friend Amber who I can talk to about anything even though she's STATES away from me. I'm thankful for my friend Sarah (we're SO different than each other, but it's an awesome friendship), and I have SO much fun with her. I'm thankful for my boss (Yes, I said my boss) because she's freaking awesome and I was terrified she was going to be a monster! I'm just so thankful that for the handful of people in my life who have let me down, I have so many other AMAZING people in my life, and people who love me, and are there for me, and spent my 30th birthday party with me, that have my back, and love me unconditionally. To those people I say, Thank You. XOXOXOXO
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Camping
It's been a while since I blogged so I thought I would....
We had SUCH an awesome weekend and I'm in such a good mood!
We had originally made plans to camp with another couple at White River Campground in Montague (it was one of the few campgrounds that had an openings left for the 4th of July weekend. We had our name on several waiting lists at other campgrounds), but they ended up cancelling so we decided to camp somewhere else. My dad had mentioned a campground in Hart called John Gurney Park. They happened to have two cancellations last weekend so we were able to get in. We took a ride up there last weekend to scope it out. It looked right up my alley! Grassy, beach, super clean bath-house, and most of all... QUIET. And THAT it was. I loved that park! We didn't have THE greatest lot but it was good for us and right across from the tennis courts, baseball fields, etc.
So, Greg, and I packed up the girls (dogs; Cleo and Reese), and headed North Saturday morning (after of course, going to the Muskegon Art Fair and buying a couple of really cool things). We had SUCH an awesome weekend (with an exception of the starter in the Bronco dying on Sunday and having to go to Ludington to get a new one and replace it in the campground). We just relaxed, listened to music, etc. The manager of the park was awesome, everyone was super friendly. It was a great place. Monday we went back up to Ludington to buy the rest of my party supplied (decorations). So all in all, we had a great weekend and it's only going to get better from here. This Saturday is my 30th Birthday Party!!! I can't wait!! Lots of great friends, family, food, laughs! I couldn't be more excited!
Now just for fun, Top Ten Pet Peeves of Camping:
10. Dirty bathouses
9. Spiders
8. No dogs on _____ signs.
7. Rain
6. Mosquitos
5. Cooking
4. Having dirty feet
3. Empty Gray Water Tank
2. Bad Neighbors
1. Leaving :)
We had SUCH an awesome weekend and I'm in such a good mood!
We had originally made plans to camp with another couple at White River Campground in Montague (it was one of the few campgrounds that had an openings left for the 4th of July weekend. We had our name on several waiting lists at other campgrounds), but they ended up cancelling so we decided to camp somewhere else. My dad had mentioned a campground in Hart called John Gurney Park. They happened to have two cancellations last weekend so we were able to get in. We took a ride up there last weekend to scope it out. It looked right up my alley! Grassy, beach, super clean bath-house, and most of all... QUIET. And THAT it was. I loved that park! We didn't have THE greatest lot but it was good for us and right across from the tennis courts, baseball fields, etc.
So, Greg, and I packed up the girls (dogs; Cleo and Reese), and headed North Saturday morning (after of course, going to the Muskegon Art Fair and buying a couple of really cool things). We had SUCH an awesome weekend (with an exception of the starter in the Bronco dying on Sunday and having to go to Ludington to get a new one and replace it in the campground). We just relaxed, listened to music, etc. The manager of the park was awesome, everyone was super friendly. It was a great place. Monday we went back up to Ludington to buy the rest of my party supplied (decorations). So all in all, we had a great weekend and it's only going to get better from here. This Saturday is my 30th Birthday Party!!! I can't wait!! Lots of great friends, family, food, laughs! I couldn't be more excited!
Now just for fun, Top Ten Pet Peeves of Camping:
10. Dirty bathouses
9. Spiders
8. No dogs on _____ signs.
7. Rain
6. Mosquitos
5. Cooking
4. Having dirty feet
3. Empty Gray Water Tank
2. Bad Neighbors
1. Leaving :)
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Parenting
On October 8th, 2005 I married the best husband a girl could ask for. On October 8th, 2005 the questions of "are you going to have kids" started.
It is five years later and I do not yet have kids. It took me five years to get to the point where I know want to have kids.
I am happy that I've been married for five years without having children. We have had an AWESOME five years together and look forward to FIFTY more awesome years together. Here is my feelings on parenting.
I am going to be an AWESOME parent because I've been around so many NOT awesome parents. If I have done nothing right in my life, the one thing I will do right is raising my children. Here are some of the reasons why:
1. My kids diets will not consist of pop and candy. I grew up with every meal, drinking milk. I LOVE milk. No, I'm not talking Chocolate milk. I would chose regular ole' white milk over chocolate any day. As a kid and now. I'm so disgusted with parents who pump their kids full of pop! Why?! Why would you fill your children with chemicals that aren't good for them? It's one thing to pump yourself full of garbage but why would you do it to your children?
2. Two days ago I saw a 5-6 year old boy sitting on a bike, with training wheels. He was with his dad. They were walking home from Wesco Gas Station. Both of them were holding GIANT fountain pops, slurping away at them. They were walking down the sidewalk. By walking down the sidewalk I mean the father was walking, slurping on his pop while holding the handlebar of the boy, PULLING him along as the boy sat on his bike seat, both hands wrapped around his giant pop, slurping away. Apparently kids don't even have to pedal anymore.
3. Which brings me to my next point; when I was a kid, probably starting around 6 or 7. I'd hop on my bike and ride it to the park everyday, I had lemonade stands with my friends, Played board games, Hopscotch, Jump rope, Rode scooters, played in the yard, built forts in the woods, had water balloon fights. I was always out with friends riding our bikes around. You don't see that anymore! Playgrounds are nearly empty, bikes seem obsolete. These kids don't even leave the house anymore. Why? Why when you can jump on facebook, play XBox, text message your friends. Why on earth would you need to go out and PLAY or SEE your friends, or go to a playground where there's so many things you can do from your bedroom or family room?!
4. Greg and I went out for chinese last night. (Whoohoo for Friday nights!) There was a table, with two women and two children. It was very apparentl the older child (a girl, maybe 8-10yrs old) was the caretaker of the smaller child (a girl, maybe two... young enough to still be in diapers, but not old enough to speak sentences). The mother was too busy talking to her....friend, mother, sister...?? The younger child was probably 60lbs. VERY obese for her age. She ran around the restaurant (after throwing all her low mein noodles all over the table and floor) screaming, running through the kitchen etc. She ran behind me once and it was very obvious running caused her to breath hard because I could hear her huffing and puffing. Before we left the "mother" sent the older child to the buffet to get her (the mother) her favorite cookies. The child returned with a plate of "donuts" (actually called sugar biscuits which are like big fluffy donut holes). The mother yelled at the older child "No! I want my cookies. They're in the back corner. Go get MY COOKIES!"
Now I know I'm not by any means a "healthy" eater and I'm certainly not fit and am overweight myself. But I am not dumb. And I certainly will not feed my children the same garbage I eat. Which is one reason why I haven't had children yet. I have to take care of myself and make myself healthy before I can raise another person.
So in closing, I can't WAIT to have kids so they can be EVERYTHING that today's society children are NOT. So Society... Muskegon... THANK YOU for teaching me NOT to parent. (And Amber, keep up the work, you're an inspiration. You're doing a great job! Love you)
It is five years later and I do not yet have kids. It took me five years to get to the point where I know want to have kids.
I am happy that I've been married for five years without having children. We have had an AWESOME five years together and look forward to FIFTY more awesome years together. Here is my feelings on parenting.
I am going to be an AWESOME parent because I've been around so many NOT awesome parents. If I have done nothing right in my life, the one thing I will do right is raising my children. Here are some of the reasons why:
1. My kids diets will not consist of pop and candy. I grew up with every meal, drinking milk. I LOVE milk. No, I'm not talking Chocolate milk. I would chose regular ole' white milk over chocolate any day. As a kid and now. I'm so disgusted with parents who pump their kids full of pop! Why?! Why would you fill your children with chemicals that aren't good for them? It's one thing to pump yourself full of garbage but why would you do it to your children?
2. Two days ago I saw a 5-6 year old boy sitting on a bike, with training wheels. He was with his dad. They were walking home from Wesco Gas Station. Both of them were holding GIANT fountain pops, slurping away at them. They were walking down the sidewalk. By walking down the sidewalk I mean the father was walking, slurping on his pop while holding the handlebar of the boy, PULLING him along as the boy sat on his bike seat, both hands wrapped around his giant pop, slurping away. Apparently kids don't even have to pedal anymore.
3. Which brings me to my next point; when I was a kid, probably starting around 6 or 7. I'd hop on my bike and ride it to the park everyday, I had lemonade stands with my friends, Played board games, Hopscotch, Jump rope, Rode scooters, played in the yard, built forts in the woods, had water balloon fights. I was always out with friends riding our bikes around. You don't see that anymore! Playgrounds are nearly empty, bikes seem obsolete. These kids don't even leave the house anymore. Why? Why when you can jump on facebook, play XBox, text message your friends. Why on earth would you need to go out and PLAY or SEE your friends, or go to a playground where there's so many things you can do from your bedroom or family room?!
4. Greg and I went out for chinese last night. (Whoohoo for Friday nights!) There was a table, with two women and two children. It was very apparentl the older child (a girl, maybe 8-10yrs old) was the caretaker of the smaller child (a girl, maybe two... young enough to still be in diapers, but not old enough to speak sentences). The mother was too busy talking to her....friend, mother, sister...?? The younger child was probably 60lbs. VERY obese for her age. She ran around the restaurant (after throwing all her low mein noodles all over the table and floor) screaming, running through the kitchen etc. She ran behind me once and it was very obvious running caused her to breath hard because I could hear her huffing and puffing. Before we left the "mother" sent the older child to the buffet to get her (the mother) her favorite cookies. The child returned with a plate of "donuts" (actually called sugar biscuits which are like big fluffy donut holes). The mother yelled at the older child "No! I want my cookies. They're in the back corner. Go get MY COOKIES!"
Now I know I'm not by any means a "healthy" eater and I'm certainly not fit and am overweight myself. But I am not dumb. And I certainly will not feed my children the same garbage I eat. Which is one reason why I haven't had children yet. I have to take care of myself and make myself healthy before I can raise another person.
So in closing, I can't WAIT to have kids so they can be EVERYTHING that today's society children are NOT. So Society... Muskegon... THANK YOU for teaching me NOT to parent. (And Amber, keep up the work, you're an inspiration. You're doing a great job! Love you)
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